Life is a highway

[ninelives]

I dont know what the hell is going on but I am feeling GREAT. I mean really good. I have been feeling that way all day.

In the grocery store, joking with people. When they ask me how Im doing I can look them in the eye and say. Im doing OK, really.

Got home from Rugby practice. Cooked dinner, cleaned up house, mowed the lawn, got battery out of boat. Havent had it in the water for two years. TIme to put it in this summer.

Played drums for about 20 minutes and I am feeling it.

TBH, I am wondering a little what the hell that message was from her this morning but not dwelling on it.

Her message read to be exact: Here comes the downward spiral.

Her problem, not mine.

Wow, i hope this feeling sticks around for awhile because I forgot what it feels like.

Thanks to all that have been here with me throughout the Sh!t.

Those of you that are new, and full of despair and thinking that your life is over. ITS NOT. It is just different.

And you wont believe me cause I didnt believe the others that went through it. I would think, " Yeah you had some pain , but I REALLY loved my wife and you cant possibly feeling exactly the amount of pain that I am and I will NEVER get over it.

Well guess what, YOU do. But you have to go through the Pain and experience yourself. And you will make mistakes. Wasnt I the KING Sandi and 25, Starsky and others really let me have it.

BUt IT IS NECESSARY.

IM not totally HEALED yet but I can say with absolute certainty, I KNOW I WILL make it one way or another. Either with her or without her.

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