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[Queen_of_Swords]

The fear runs deeper than being alone deeper than being left. It is the fear in not believing. The fear of not trusting.

All I can tell you 2step is to figure out what the worst fear is, and face it down compassionately within yourself.
For me the worst thing that could happen was being abandoned ,yet I was abandoned.

It did not kill me, although I wanted to die.

This is key 2step. I have learned that most of our greatest fears are tied in to survival issues as a child. An abandoned baby or child would likely die. I, as an adult will not, but my subconcious reptilian brain which is concerned with survival alone doesn't KNOW that. It also can't tell time, so even though I'm 49 years old, it didn't KNOW that and I REACTED like I was a child. Which is why my H. leaving was such an awful trauma to me.

Trust issues are much the same and I'm dealing with that now. I don't trust easily either and really never have. If you as a tiny baby could not reliably get your basic needs met you learned very early that trusting the adults in your life was dangerous and in some cases futile. You also learned about disappointment and to EXPECT it.
Many of us in our age group did not learn to trust simply because of the child rearing practices of the time like crying it out were recommended by our parents' peers and by the experts of the time.

The truth is most people CAN be trusted. The truth is many of your needs can be met by you.

In an earlier post of mine I described how your subconcious mind is slave to YOUR spoken word. So if these feelings arise, you tell yourself out loud your true age, that you're an adult and can handle the challenges that life throws at you. You can survive and thrive, you can trust, and the world is a safe and nurturing place.

The hardest part is figuring out what your deepest fears are, where your greatest trauma lies. That takes some real digging.