I do take Xanax on a as needed basis. But due to my job I can only take them at night.
Ok, I just just had a conversation with the W, that has me confused. I asked the W if she had given another thought to MC. (I know not the smartest convo to start) Anyway the last week things seemed different between us. W answers I dont know...maybe, I dont know. (which is a change from a flat out NO)I say well how about a couple sessions just to see how things go. She I dont know, maybe....but I can not say for certain what I will say, and you know what they will say if I am not 100 % in (not her exact phraseing but I cant remember exact words). I say I know what will happen.
She then states that "I dont know that we will ever have a marriage like we had before". I respond with well that might not be a bad thing, we might be able to make it stronger.After some more convo. she says well if you can stay married to me with out ever having sex again than I am in. I did not respond to this, then she says because right now the thought of having sex with you ..pause..is just not going to happen. I respond with we dont know what will happen 6 months from now or even a year. I dont expect this to be fixed soon....( I know this smacks of desperation, my stomach was twisting and flipping the whole time. I had trouble speaking was very nervous) Now the entire convo was pretty calm no shouting was just a discussion. After couple minutes of little convo., the W says I dont know.
Now I am not sure how to take this ....parts sound bad, but I also see some positives in this convo. because she has weakended on some of the stances of "NO". I know I am going to smacked on this and willing to take it, but would also like some feed back. Thanks, I know this is a long post but trying to get it all in here.
