Even after quite a lot of therapy that is something I haven't been able to break through. There was a time where I made a pretty good start at it and then Gabe came back and my mind went haywire and the eggshell walking began again.
Old habits are VERY hard to break. The nice part about the D and the therapy was that you had new space in which to work on yourself, you were forced into new habits and patterns because the situation changed so drastically. But now you have Gabe back and no therapist, so it is harder to work on breaking those old patterns.
But you have accomplished a lot!
You have moved from unconscious incompetence in communicating those things to conscious incompetence. You are aware of what you want to work on, the patterns you want to change.
You just need to keep progressing towards conscious competence, which you do every time you address one of these issues like you have done!
And then, in the future, you can look forward to unconscious competence where you don't have to come on here and plan what to say and agonize over it in advance, you will be able to just do it!
You have made progress. Don't beat yourself up about the pace, just focus on the steps you have taken. And keep moving forward, one step at a time. It's scary, but you are worth it!
(((Mishka)))
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
