On an added note: H does not have a vehicle. I do....he's asked to use it a few times for job related stuff or taking D someplace. He's been very upfront and seems to be honest with it all, and I'm really trying my best to not overreact and to just try to trust him, but after so many lies from him in the past, it's hard....very hard....afraid of being taking advantage of....i.e. H treating me nicely to use my car? or does he just genuinely want to be on these friendly/maybe more? terms with me?
I know I really need to stop obsessing over it all. Have plenty of other stuff in my life that I'm already heavily involved with, so that helps prevent me from sitting around dwelling on the dynamics of my R with H, but I needed to take the time this afternoon to put it all out there.
me 32 H 30 T 8 years M ~5 years DD 3 years first d-bomb dec 06 second bomb may 07 third bomb july 08 finally seperated jan 09 a move for "progress'" sake may 11
