I'm pretty pathetic for a WAS. It was tough watching him move out, and to have him be so cold (or nasty) the whole time. Even then it was hard not to hug him or tell him I love him or let him know everything will be okay. I can say it never occurred to me once to put an end to the divorce, but it is painful just the same. I need, rather than want, to get a divorce, and I'm heartsick every minute of it. It's twisted, but I do miss him. I have a theory that when one decides to love another, it's a decision that sticks. I know there are all of those ILYBINILWY WAS's out there who would disagree, but it just doesn't work that way for me. --z
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