I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

FIBS, I was driving to work today and I am scared right now about everything. I am scared I can't make it financially. I am scared I won't find anything as good as what I had. I am scared that in five years people will see me and say 'boy, what happened to that guy?'

These are all things I've thought about for months and felt I was ready for them. But the finish line is right in front of me now.

In two days, I'll have to face the fear because it'll be here.

The money thing really is the most concerning. My sister told me once she could tell from my posts or emails whether or not I was worried about money. When I'm feeling secure financially, everything else doesn't seem so bad. When I'm worried about money then everything else is a worry as well.

I'm just having a hard time having faith that it'll all be OK.