I am not actually miserable - again I only post negative stuff here, because this is my safe place.
I have "quit" trying to save our marriage, but I haven't quit thinking and feeling about what happened.
The kids work there in order to see their Mom and make some money at the same time. I think they know they would rarely see her other wise. Her whole life is the restaurant and people connected to it. Seriously.
The cards. I wanted to do it and did. Whatever her reaction is really doesn't make any difference. Like I said earlier, what can she do to me? Nothing.
I still have some anger and frustration to work through, but again, I am not feeling horrible. Daily life is actually pretty good.
I will end with a positive for a change - I attended the auto auction on my own for the first time tonight and did a great job of buying cars for the dealership. And...I am watching hockey with the kids (including D19's boyfriend) and day 14 of dark is complete.
