I am learning to trust. Why? I have no choice really. If I can't trust her again - in all respects - then I might as well quit now.
It looks like we are moving ahead with the living apart plan. I don't call it a separation because we aren't really separating our lives per se. The only question still seems to be when.
Initially we talked about July 1, but I think August 1 might be more realistic. The place I found is within walking distance of our house. My Wife loves that idea.
I really have to trust her on this as she thinks it will let us heal.
My W is really confusing me on this. Her words and actions don't match up with someone who wants me not to live with her.
I mean, I've brought up sleeping in the same bed still because at some point we won't if I move out. She said there is no reason to change that now. she still is fine with hanging out and doing stuff. I don't think ML is off the table at this point.
Today, she ran out of gas and called me. I helped her and she sends me a text that says - thanks,it was nice to see you in the middle of the work day.;)
She tells me she loves me and how important I am to her live and not just because I'm our boys father.
Heck this week she even decide not to go to a conference in DC for 3 days.
I guess my only goals is to keep doing what I'm doing (and she did comment on the last 2 weeks). Show her the changes. And see what happens. Maybe she might decide that living apart isn't such a good thing when it really comes down to it. She will get a taste of what it is like in a couple weeks when I go to Colorado for a family reunion for a week. I'm taking our oldest son too. (I'm getting sworn in in Colorado too)
I guess like 25mlc, I want to show her how things could be.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
