I am the devil....

[tadpole1025]

Thanks 25, Antonia and AJ.

25, I am not choosing to end it yet, but sometimes I wonder if I should and sometimes feel like a fool for having any little hope that I have.

Antonia, she usually doesn't contact me everyday. She just did last week for some reason. She hasn't contacted me since Friday.

AJ, like you, I talk that way and really was just trying to hold a conversation. I've looked for you a little bit on the alt.....still looking. I feel like a detective. Any more hints?

The last two days have been decent. Still waiting to hear about the job. I'm kind of in a funk today though. Spent all night last night dreaming about W.

I do have a question though.

If this is supposed to get easier for me with time, isn't it also getting easier for W? Just curious.

Today is laundry day. S18 and I will be spending the day at the laundromat. (W took the washer and dryer.)

I got a really big scare today. Got a letter in the mail from a law firm. I thought that it probably had something to do with our court date. I opened it after looking at it for a few minutes. Turns out that it was just junk mail. Thank God.

I was looking at a picture today of W and S18 that was taken a few weeks ago on S18's graduation day. For the first time, I realized that I really do not know this woman at all anymore. I wonder if the real W is still in there somewhere....

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