Is there any way I can help you convince yourself that feeling yucky is a detriment to clear thinking? You know how sick I was for those 3 weeks, and I was NOT able to have much clarity myself.
I know you would like to start over with Dr. K. It appears that he's more in the rebuilding mode. Is it possible for you to compromise? After all, you ARE a different person now... maybe the time to let him do what he needs to do to feel closer to you while you do what feels right to you?
I'm going to say one thing about the girls in the elevator. Forget about them. Why? In college, there were a few hunky teachers the rest of us drooled over. Most of them did not get into Rs with students (though a few did), but they didn't squelch the attention.
As long as there are attractive teachers and young girls, there will be crushes. Write that off. They were probably disappointed to see a Mrs. K. and a really attractive one. Too bad! Just imagine your Ds and their mocking responses...
So make sure you get yourself well before we head down this path. It's tough to look for good stuff and very easy to focus on the less-than-ideal stuff when you're feeling yucky.
Big hugs.
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
