Learning, I don't know what part of our state your from....but OMG this heat is terrible...You have heard that we are going to be struggling to hit a high of 70 by sunday. From heat index of 100 to 68 degrees....no wonder everybody i know feels sick.
Going to the campgrounds in a few hours with 3 of my gal friends to play in the pool. OK Its a litle bitty 18 foot diameter above ground...but still will feel good.
Wanna join us? lol
Tele.....ty and its weird that you said that because hubby when he is feeling cuddley.says I AM the best catch he ever made. We used to go to the UP and Canada fishing alot...I miss those trips.
I'm glad I'm giving Hope to some of you, I guess what matters is the person YOU become after its all said and done ( the DB ) Ya know life is too short, and we are not promised a tomorrow So " Life each day to its fullest " whether that be GAL, enjoying your family...your kids....and the people that do LOVE you.
SD applied to Western and was accepted, but decided to go to school in CO where she grew up. And yes, it's a Big Ten school (though I'm partial to the Pac-10, having graduated from ASU
EL and AA are both pretty cool places, so if I didn't live in one I'd have lived in the other. That was one of the things 1st W and I agreed on to get me to move back here. Which, once we D'ed I met W2, so it's funny how life works out sometimes.
I don't really care if people have a general sense of where I live (though they can't come visit and stay), so I'll just say I go from my college town to the other to shop at Trader Joe's. Final clue
Back on topic(ish), it's hot enough that you could probably cuddle with your H to cool down
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011
I went back and read your recent posts........This has to be hard for you, esp. with the remote interactions with wife /OM. Good for you that U recognized the need to increase your A/D
I have been on them at times ( situational depression )I'm off them now and have been for a couple of years...but I too know the signs to watch for if I need them again. So many men I know just totally refuse that kind of help! esp. hubbies side of the family.. Why?, I dont know i guess they would rather suffer.
Speaking of going dark, it IS literally getting black to the south........Guess I'd better go get chores done..
Just wanted you to know that people are listening and reading your journaling.so keep it up esp if it helps you!
I have been posting on other sites and forgot about mine...oops
Well.......still going to a alanon mtg once a week. Our fishing date did not materalize because of the weather (storms) but we did go for a long Sunday drive in the air conditioned truck which was real nice. We love to explore different areas.....and just relax.
I got really angry about the way my hubby was yelling at me the other day.....( over a razor ) He went way over the top. I'm noticing this happening more and more. I calmly told him that until he could talk to me with respect and NOT scream at me I was not going to respond, and left the room. He wasn't drinking nor had he that week.
I did figure out what was bothering him,, Fathers day....He lost his father whom he worked with and really respected 10 years ago. He had been in the garden using his dad's rototiller, and he was just zoned out and had tears in his eyes. He has never really dealt with his death...their family just doesn't show emotions unless it is anger. So i guess I was the easy target.
I lost my dad 28 years ago and his birthday in May was really hard for me this year. Hubby does not remeber birthdays well but did realize that I was down and asked me about it. Thats progress for us.
See we are always a work in motion.. So glad I found this site years ago
To be honest Nines situation has thrown me for a loop, god the memories that this brings back, I keep thinking about the long hard road that he and his kids have in store for them.
It took me years....of IC, alanon, and digging deep ......and you know what finally did " IT " for me was forgiveness, and realizing how very ILL my father was, putting myself in his position.....a position were U believe that there is no other choice...besides suicide.
Forgiveness towards myself ( The last conversation I had with my Dad was a verbal fight about the way my life was going....he hated my hubby and did not want me to be with him.. I had never raised my voice or fought with my Dad and one week later he was dead ) I know NOT my fault but as NINE has said its almost impossible to NOT blame yourself, that comes with time and alot of soul seraching.
Forgiveness for my Dad ( He had always promised that he would never leave his family this way as his own father had committed suicide and knew how it would effect our lives. )
I'll tell you what when U lose a loved one all the " Little " problenms that we face each and every day seem soooo trival.
Im praying for everyone on this board and for myself and my lost loved ones that we all may find peace.
