Letting go is hard to do!

[Seminolewind]

I had thought for quite a while that my wife was just a flat out horrible person for what she is doing to our family. I have stewed about what she has done I have had my share of pity parties for myself and what have I learned? I can actually say that I probably didn’t learn anything through all that. I finally figured something out that may help several of us in similar situations as mine. When you feel hurt, lonely, kind of just a little lost in life. You can let things happen that you normally wouldn’t. My wife did and now I will say that I have. I am not proud of what I have done but now I do see exactly how easy it is to go down this path. My wife is a very beautiful woman, I know guys were always hitting on her even in front of me. I wasn’t giving her the attention that she needed and she finally said enough the marriage is done. She done something that might just bring happiness into her life. That’s what we all want is happiness! Well I can say that when someone is aggressive towards you when you are feeling this way you can fall into the trap. That trap for me has not made me find happiness, actually I think I found the exact opposite.

I have been asking myself what have I learned in the last 8 months? I would like to someday start a new relationship with my wife. I need my kids to see me as the best dang dad on this planet. I would like to become the man my wife would find attractive. Everyone is capable of making bad choices in life. Forgive yourself for your mistakes and forgive others for their mistakes. Be patient and life will give you what you need. Let the anger out it just clouds the brain.

Now I need to make peace with myself so I can move forward from here. I am not sure what I should do at this point but I need to continue down the road to happiness. Thanks Jack, I will strive to do better and I will forgive myself in time.