There is no doubt I am in the official freak out mode. Paranoid and anxious. I don't get it. Been with this woman for 20 years and she and I have been very tight. Now all that is in tatters, and, as I head home today, I am overwhelmed with anxiety over what I will find:
-an angry woman who hates me and just wants to ct me out? -a WAW who can't wait to leave and join some new OM (don't know about that, just self-induced paranoia)? -a confused woman who might be second guessing herself? -a WAW with all does closed tight?
How can I be so uncertain about a woman I have been in love with two decades ago. I feel very deflated and hopeless.
And now I have to GAL, act as if, and get a game face on. WTF.
H 51, W 46 no kids T 22 years M 17 years ILBNILWY 2/10 1st D talk 6/10 partial recovery W files D 5/11 long distance separation 8/11 moving forward on D 10/11 legal separation complete 1/2012
