One foot out the door, the other on a rug....

[luvmyhubby]

New Day, New Dawn...
I cant seem to tell which end is up sometimes.. He took the kids with him all day yesterday because he felt bad about them missing him. They didnt get home until 8pm and I know he was tired and I asked him if he wanted to stay at our house since he was so tired. Of course it was a no. Then I stopped him and told him he could call me to talk if he needed to that it was okay. He stopped and kind of had a sad look in his eyes and then he said okay and left.

He was late again this morning to get the kids but I didnt say anything. Three days now he cannot make it our house in time for me to leave for work. I just smile and tell him to have a great day and not to worry about it.

This morning I thought i would try a different 180 that is on the nice end of spectrum. I used to just get up, get dressed and wake up the kids and leave them for him. Today I got up early got ready then fixed a complete breakfast.
The kids were really happy to have homemade food for breakfast instead of donuts with dad. I also made him a full cup of coffee and put it in a to go mug.

Not sure if this is too much but it was a 180 that seemed to make sense for me..
Im feeling more like I need to detach so I dont keep feeling these horrible emotions. Just not sure the best way to do that..

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H:31
W: 34
M- 11
Tog- 13
D-5
S-8
Seperated living apart
He has been this way for about 6 weeks...