Hi again!

Whew suddenly very tired so I will make this a quickie...

Gotta take a nap and recover.

Dr. K did come over yesterday but DIDN"T go to church with me
He called at 2 said he got up at 10 and did paper work and still needed to go workout then was going to church in town at 5!!

I was very disappointed as I had asked him to come out here to go WITH me...He said He wasn't in charge of my expectations. I should have made it clearer.

Of course that's true.....It is childish of me...on the other hand if I had tried to pin him down he would have avoided that too??

Anyways, I realized what I needed was reassurance and he has been giving that to me all weekend...so I just relaxed and hoped he would still come out for dinner....

He did and he stayed the night....we watched movies and went to bed together.+ S23 just made himself invisible all evening and D21 was sorta bored, made us popcorn and sat at the computer while we watched.

Slept better together, but I still got to wondering what is up? No deliberate touching, just turning and repositioning all night, no sexual advances, finally when I went to get up he smiled and said good morning... ...and wanted me to do everything.....Okay, what the heck...leave em smilin' right?

I let him sleep in and left...........Forgot I left DR right next to the bed on his side!!!!!!!!!Absolutely panicked!!! What could I do...I just prayed maybe he wouldn't see it??

He'll just pass it off anyways....he probably wouldn't take the time to look it over very thoroughly.

I called him at noon as pre-arranged....my friends party cancelled tonight....host got ill.

Dr. K is good with that, his foot is hurting him and he says he isn't up for it anyways....gonna talk later....

Thanks for all the encouragement Betsey. It helps soooo much to have a second opinion on this stuff...objectivity is near impossible to acheive.
You're soo right he HATES assumptions. He likes things to be clear up front (even thought HE likes to be vague!)

If I can view this as not personal...Yes, it is much easier to let go of wanting...
When I thought of him doing the things he said he had to do( papers, working out, because he hadn't for two days, etc.........then it made much sense that he couldn't possibly make it out to the house for church with me. At least he was going!!!+ and he said he would be there in spirit, that maybe we could double team it??!!( I don't know quite what he meant? ...

When he called at 6:20 to say he was running late ..I was just cheerful and relaxed, happy that he was coming...( honest moment here: I drove downtown to see the Jeep( while he was working out.......it hadn't been moved in two days! it was right where it had been. He had done exactly as he had said he did. I know I can't always get that kind of affirmation but I talked to God about it before I went. This situation has not been fostering trust and if that's what I needed...he said go ahead!...."I'm workin' on him! You just go see"...so I did!!

Please don't think I'm crazy!! This sort of checking is something I would have NEVER done before....I could almost feel God chuckling at me...I have always been way too trusting and accepting of Dr. K's behavior and I think this is actually a 180 for me...not to be so naive.

Yucky stuff, but all so nessesary..

I'm on my way to Pam's after my nap!! I'll organize her til she can't find a thing!
Pam did do a great job this weekend!!!WTGGF!!

TTYL have a good evening
Trish