Wow, what a post! I read this twice, and both times I agreed with myself that Dr. K. does love you and care about you.
And I'm so glad you wrote those positives! They are exactly what I would have pointed out, so I'm thrilled that you did it by yourself, without my urging! You did a great job!
It sounds like Dr. K. doesn't like assumptions. What can you do to be more direct with him so he can give you answers? I see the spiral because when he calls you on it, you feel bad about yourself and retreat.
Trish, what would happen if you decided that whatever he chose wasn't anything personal and a no didn't mean a personal rejection? Would you be more inclined to let him refuse to do things your way?
You know that I'm not throwing stones because I live in this glass house too.
I just see the similarities between these men!
I see your interactions as immense progress, friend. You realize that you have to iron this stuff out so you can go smoothly from here. Mr. Wonderful and I have already had a chance to address the stuff you're doing in MC last summer... and it was yucky but necessary.
You going over to Pam's to help her get organized? Sounds like a good volunteer job for some nervous energy!
Pam, BTW, you did a fantastic job this weekend. I'm proud of you!
Now I have to run to a sales meeting and then I'll come back and journal in my own thread. Not much to say, but there is "something".
Take care and make it a great day! Hugs.
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."