Need help...don't know what to do...

[chris1102]

Today was an interesting day... someone must be up there listening to my prayers. I did good haven't txted H in about a week. I got a text from him wanting me to resend the txts from last week to him.

Then H was fishing for info, talking about are you dating yet pimpstress? I said no but there is this one guy I'm interested in that works too much and gave a description of him.

He mentioned how he seen me with the BIL alot. I ended up meeting up with him, haven't seen him in three months and gave him some mail I had. I kept the convo positive and neutral. He was wearing his ring even though it was on the right hand instead. I smiled and mentioned it and he said he has been wearing it.

It was a pretty good visit and I know he is confused about my 180s that I have done I seen it on his face. I brought up something a friend said and then said I didn't agree with it and just dropped it which surprised him.

I mentioned that I'm pretty sure dad would let him move back in to cut down on some bills. This was my way of saying he needed to move out of the house AWAY from the roommate.

Being in the van with him I was reminded of the toxic roommate because I happened to look down and noticed her glasses case and bottle of makeup remover stashed under the passenger seat. I didn't say anything about it and didn't react at all.

He mentioned that I flipped out about the van and I didn't know anything about it. I was calm and said I didn't flip out and I was upset because of who helped him get it. H says it didn't matter who helped him get it that it was paid for and he has title and is making payments. I just kind of dropped it and changed the subject which surprised him again.

I am usually very stubborn and will keep going till I proove my point but I just let it go. I asked him why he took my name off the business and he said he did it to cover his behind and he still doesn't realize that even though, he put her name on it that it is still a marital asset because it was started during the marriage. I just said that it hurt my feelings when he took my name off because we started it together and left it at that.

The whole time we were talking he had his hand on me and was looking into my eyes. He kissed me on the forehead a couple of times and we actually kissed and I still get the butterflies in my stomach like the first time we kissed.

He talked about how he is with the road clubs he was trying to get with awhile ago. I smiled and told him I was proud of him for that. Well, I'll let this all sink in for him and hope for the best. I always said that everything we have been through has only made us stronger as a couple.

I didn't tell him I love him I refrained from doing that this time but I have to work on leaving before he does. I thanked him for seeing me. Hopefully my patience and my new changes bring him closer and the roommate can finally release her claws from my H.

He is still on the defensive and is not sure about wanting to start over. He acted like I didn't know what I was talking about when I brought the last time I talked to him and the convo went that it was over, why wasn't I getting it, weren't the papers enough? He just said someone else had the phone, which it was more than likely the Roommate. I let that convo go too. I'm just going to keep praying that we make it through this and keep to my 180s.