That $1000 a month, might not be a legal document, but it sets up legal precedence for later.
As for seeing the OM...
5 years later I still get flashes of hurt if I think about it...momentary and quick, but there none the less.
Any chance your son would understand if you dropped him off out of view of the parking lot?
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Sometimes, I wonder how much I can take.
Not to be trite, but sounds like about another year.
When we LBS imagine what its like for them, we tend to glamorize it. Earth shattering sex, gourmet dinners, giggle whispers and endless "I love yous", making fun of the LBS and our pathetic lifestyle. Fantastic getaway weekends.
And that...is not what real life is. She farts in bed and he has pimples on his ass.
You are in a better place Be, you're a better more complete person.
Actually she never farted in bed in over 20 years....and I am not sure a pimple on the ass of society can have pimples on his ass.
I would love to not take any risk of seeing OM or STBX when I drop off S17, but dropping him off elsewhere would make me look weak to him and also to STBX and OM. I at least, want her to think it's no big deal to me anymore.
Sometimes, I do think their life together is awesome for them. But then I remember that is (be her admission) a liar and also a dyed in the wool cheater. I doubt the stress level at the restaurant is any better now that they are openly involved. He has his divorce upcoming. STBX is still dealing with many health issues. As far as I know they are both still drinking and smoking themselves to death. So...yeah...maybe I do make their life too glamorous.
One thing I do believe is true - that they do snicker about me and make fun of the fact that I never did anything about their EA and most likely PA that has been going on for years.
They both wanted each other for sooooo long, but I suppose it doesn't mean they are happy now, or will be in the future. It's so hard not to keep scorecards.
