Journaling: Perhaps I should post more often, but there doesn’t seem to be much to post. Internet access is at work, and I need to maintain production. I need to restart the service at home after my budget settles.
I am waiting on my L to draft a proposal for my approval.
There has been no contact with W in over two weeks.
I am painting the house and cleaning the yard again. The lawnmower is in for repair. Archery is tonight. I have looked at kayaks, the cheaper ones are as expensive as a new bow. W has accused me of being a cheap SOB. That phrase ringing in my head helped us dig this debt hole.
Our daughter has asked to go on a little vacation with me after her summer classes conclude in August. We spoke about visiting Gettysburg. This was a stop on the last vacation W and I took. Our daughter wanted to go then but couldn’t due to her school schedule. IMO, this is a thing left undone for her. Maybe it seems odd that our almost 30 yr old daughter want to spend vacation time with us. I should explain the fam dynamic a bit.
Our daughter rebelled as a teenager. It got very serious after her 18th birthday. She is a lesbian and our inability to accept this aspect of her contributed to her rebellion. She began running with a crowd that isolated and took advantage of her. She distanced herself from a bad relationship as she entered her early twenties. She has been slowly integrating herself back into family ever since. Moving in with and keeping an eye on her grandmother was a big positive step. It contributed to improving her self esteem.
I accepted her as she is several years ago. W has not. I think this is contributing to the problem she and her mother are presently having. Ws decision, the way she announced it and the manner it has progressed has affected our daughter almost as much as me. Sadly I think I have moved further along the change curve that either of our children or W have. Good for me, but I feel a sense of responsibility to help the kids. I realize doing so could become meddling and using the kids. I am trying to restrict the impulse to fix it and I am letting them work through it.
One of the things bothering me is the conversation I had with our DIL. She recently separated from active service, her husband deployed, and the pregnancy is making her feel tired all of the time. When I spoke with her she sounded depressed, missing our son and staying in the apartment most of the time. All I could do was encourage her to get out of the apartment and find some fun activities. Her reaction to my suggestions was less than enthusiastic. We were just beginning to establish a relationship, and she isn’t very open with me yet.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill
