Thanks for the warm welcomes too! I've been reading up on your sitch's and you are all amazing!! I feel like I am very fortunate to be in such good company.
Undie Please do jump right on in ......I let out a deep breath when I read what you said about Dr. K's crazymaking...I realized right away what you were talking about and you were right of course!
He is just trying to make "crazy"
It's so nice to have friends that know You!! Of course I will head off to church...and I WILL meditate tonight (Thank you, Soup wherever you are .)
The bankruptcy issue in and of itself is distressing, as it would be for anyone, but I think we could handle it if that was all there was, like there hadn't been a separation or lawsuit nonsense. In so many ways I would think bankruptcy would be a relief for some people!!..... Obviously this goes deeper than just money ( doesn't everything )
The true problem.... as it has always been..... MY insecurity and uncertainty.
The fear is: He's doing this as more crazy making and we are making our situation even worse He's doing this bankruptcy to get out from under the house and any of MY debt, then he'll file for Divorce and because of those papers from "1998", he'll think he doesn't have to support me in any way and can walk away.......
Now actually that is the fear..."I will be left"....and there I will sit rejected, vulnerable and looking foolish.
Someone once told me the thing to do is imagine the ABSOLUTE worst case scenario.... then realize you can still survive that!
As long as you are still breathing and still are in possesion of your soul....everything else....is Cake!
So what am I so afraid of?
If he's going to do this he's going to do it....nothing I do can stop or change it....
Do I think somehow what I do affects the outcome? Like I could make a wrong move or a wrong step...a bad decision.??
This is my own crazymaking. Thinking I can control for any of this.
I'm going back over to your post Undie and read up on you!
