Had a very good conv with DB coach Lori, I told all the things that had happened as far as her moving out and telling the kids. I told her how I had handled all of it, by helping her move and being there for my kids. I also advised her of how my Dbing has been going, and the use of the last resort tech. I said how, I have been acting around her and the detachment from her. She told me that I have been doing everything exactly the right way. She said she was so very proud of me and that, I shold continue to do what I have been doing, as I have been getting some small feedback from w.
Yesterday was a tough day for me emotionally, my s12 had a school baseball game last night and she was there also. I acted like I was GALing and she was trying to do the same. But I could tell she was overdoing it. Her cousin called me yesterday before the game and told me that w was having a very hard time, and felt she was on the verge of a breakdown. She told me that w told her that it seemed I was better and was getting on with my life without her. She said all the commments that w made to her about me were good ones. I dont think at this point my w is thinking about coming home, because she just moved out 2 weeks ago and she afraid of what others will say, especially her mother. I do think she feels she has made a mistake, but like Lori, my DB coach said; it too soon for my w, and she needs to feel more remorse and take more responsibilty for her actions. My biggest problem is patience, and I tend to read to much into the little things. I know for the benefit of my kids and myself, I will have to continue to let GOD handle this. It is in fact too soon for any major movement, but from what actions my w has been doing in the 2 weeks since she has been gone proves that at the least she is thinking about it. I know no OM will provide or give her the sense of family, or no OM will love her the way I do. I will continue on my journey for now, like my good friend told me yesterday, this is her fight, not mine. I have already fought the battle and my w knows how I feel about her, and knows what I bring to this marriage and family. My prays remain the same, bring her to you god, if she is to come back to me.
Have a good day all.