back again

[any chance?]

Last day of my work trip, and I head home tomorrow. Filled with anxiety, and my mind is swirling. Conjuring up all kinds of terrible scenarios, and I have a huge knot in my stomach. Not very condusive to focusing on what I am doing here.

I stayed fairly dark for the past 2.5 weeks. W was dark for the first week, then tried to contact me several times toward the end of week 2. When we talked on the phone, there was no D or L talk, just light banter. Missing me or guilt inspired, who knows?

Got my list of goals and a GAL attitude as I head back. Just going to act as if I am just going to live my life and move on without her.

No idea what I am walking back into. Paranoia is massive. Could use some pointers on how to deal with this transition!