My H has been texting me non-stop. I can tell that the LRT has gotten him in a tissy.
These are some of the things he has text me: "I am sorry, but I just dont have what it takes to be sober right now, but I am looking forward to having more self-control". I didnt respond.
"Would you want to come and work for me painting a deck". I said no thanks I am gonna be really busy during this whole month, sorry. He said "No problem I was just looking out for your financial situation". Then I didnt respond back.
"How do you find the strength to be sober?". I didnt respond. "Sometimes I feel like Herculies and sometimes I am my own worst enemy". I didnt respond.
"Are you ok". "I am at 4 ----- st."(his new address). "sorry". I didnt respond to any of those either.
"Im very sorry that I blew up your phone last night. I am not doing as well as I would like to be. I've done it to myself and there is no excuse. Please forgive me". I didnt respond.
"Jimmy ------ (his long term employee that happens to be in A.A.) quit on tuesday morning. No explanation. No notice. Probably becuase I am an alcoholic.IDK, tough times". I didnt respond.
"I cant have my cake and eat it too. Your not gonna be my friend or my wife. Way too painfully complicated. I'm here for you always anyway. Love stinks". I didnt respond.
**** Anyways, I think that by me not responding and him having stuggels being alone he may be starting to see the light a bit. You think??? I know that he is obviously in a lot of pain. I hope I am doing the right thing by not responding to him/going dark.
What do you all think about these texts he is sending me. He is suffering from the illness of alcoholism badly and he just wont get the help needed. I feel so bad for him and it is killing me to not reach out and be a friend and help him and show compassion and tell him I forgive him for his disease.
I am still sticking to LRT. But it is not easy when he is so desperate for help and for me to answer him. WHAT SHOULD I DO??? TIPPER
