D19 was just showing me pics of her vacation in Mexico with her bf. It made me happy for her, but so sad. STBX and I loved vacations together and went twice a year as a couple and then at XMAS with our kids. It also made me think of STBX and OM/boss being away together a few months ago. I thought of them meeting other vacationers and those people only knowing them as a couple. They would think they are married and they are - just not to each other. I didn't let my sadness show to D19. I just said "that makes me miss vacations". Just one year ago, STBX and I were away together for her 40th bday. What a difference a year makes.
Today my Boss upset me a little at work. In the past I would call my wife to feel better. I also thought of that today. So...today was a little rough from a memories point of view, but nothing I can't handle. I can handle anything now.
One good thing about today. This is day 12 of total darkness. That's the "best" I have ever done. It will feel good to make it official when this day ends.
