Denouement on the Rocks...

[Daybreak]

Z - that was a really good DB weekend that MAL organized.

WII - I'll do my best to keep on the lookout for authentic Canadian maple syrup so I can enjoy the best power advantage!

Journaling...

School for the kids is done until late August and the "lazy, crazy, hazy days of Summer" are in full force here in NC. Hope we get the occasional respite with some much needed rain...

Interesting couple of conversations I had with my parents yesterday and with my IC today. I call periodically to check on my parents (both retired in their mid 70's in FL, in OK health and married for 54 years) and talked quite a bit with my Mom yesterday - catching up on family stuff. The convo gravitated towards when I could expect a resolution on my sitch. I told Mom that I was waiting until the end of June to see if W would finalize the financials on our sep agreement since she has been the main driver on this. I assured her that if there was no movement from W, I would take the reins and push this through to get closure.

Mom then related to me an interaction that she had with W from many years ago. At the time, W decided to make another go with H#2 and that she was breaking up with me. The reconciliation only lasted 3 to 4 days before she decided that her future was better with me in it. I knew that W had visited the school I was doing research at to see about transfering in and that she had interviewed for a job. What I didn't know was W had gone to talk to my Mom that same day (Mom and I worked in the same town). Mom relayed to W that if W hurt me again like she did during the breakup a few days ago, Mom would kill her. (Moms can be so fiercely protective of their kids!) W assured her that she was moving to be with me and that marriage and a family was in the cards.

This convo happened back in the late 80's so it helps for me to see that Mom was always a bit wary of W despite the good years we had in our marriage...

My IC appt for today went well - I see the guy every few weeks now for maintenance purposes. During our session IC kept referring to W as XW - and I was surprised by the fact that the term did not bother me at all. Although I will always be a work in progress, maybe I have finally embraced the acceptance of it all and am really ready to move to the next phase of my life. IC believes that I am ready for that next great relationship in my life. I don't know about that - but the thought of it scares and pleases me...