Life is a highway

[ninelives]

Thanks Jb. Dont know if she is pushing buttons or just living her life without me. I really dont know.

Today on the way home and on my bike , I felt a strange sense of calm like , Okay, this is what you want, lets live it. I drove by her house on the way to the hardware store and for the first time, did not look to see whose vehicles where in the driveway. Almost Like i didn't care. Almost, but i did look away for the first time ever. That may be a good sign.

If my patterns continue, I will be at peace for a few days then, something will happen and be a little upset. I dont want to be and I hope i get some thicker skin at some point. I have to.

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