Journaling..

Two days of him no contact. No skype no email.. I would have been fine with that except my almost 4 yr old girl had a crying fit asking me to call Daddy on his computer. Heartbreaking listening to her sobbing for over 10 minutes.

Also I got worried... http://www.wbay.com/story/14844253/8-killed-in-separate-attacks-across-iraq
The news said attack happened in eastern Baghdad, he is in western Baghdad....still it's really very selfish of him not to contact anybody (if he's able to call / email or skype)so at least we know that he's safe.

I did bootcamp today and I feel pretty stoked. I was able to keep up with the young uns in that class. Physically I am strong - I wish I can say the same thing internally. I will get there.

Me 43 / H 36
M 3 / T5
S18/ D17 with 1st H
D3
D1
H Emotionally detached March 2011
I dont love you May 17 2011
Husband is deployed