I didn’t do any pursuing, I kind of just let it happen and really don’t know why. I didn’t flirt, I was nice to her but nothing out of my normal character for anyone male or female. I have been very honest with her, she knows I was not even remotely interested in doing anything. I feel like an idiot! I knew better than even putting myself in this situation. I had goals and this was not on my list. I like to have fun and make people laugh and was having a great time. I should have walked in with my friend and this would have never happened. Yes, I am beating myself up, but to be honest this is something that I didn’t want happening. I know I am human but I have been strict with myself to not put myself in this type of situation. I haven’t told anyone, except this anonymous board. I just had to get it off my chest, not that it changes anything but I had to let it out.
Today is a new day and I am just going to go back to making the proper choices in my life. The choices that will make my girls and me happy. I guess what I am getting at is I know two wrongs don’t make a right. I need time and I need to look at why I let this happen. I like being in control of myself and this is not the 180 I was looking at trying. This is just like the time I drove and sat outside the OM’s house because I wanted to knock a little sense into his head. At least then I was smart enough to walk away.
Me 44 W 38 M 18 D 18 D 13 Bomb 10/21/2010 Divorced 7/19/2011 Just getting to the 7th inning!
