I knew it would happen. I talked to my W about the meeting with the MC...and as I predicted it got launched into a huge R talk. i did a horrible job of Dbing.
Starts off with my W saying "don't think this changes anything." It's like she wont even listen to what the MC has to say about other options beside me moving out.
My 2 weeks of good interactions didn't change sh!t. I Know, I know it's not enough time, but frankly time is running out.
She doesn't five a hoot that I don't really snoop anymore...she still thinks I do.
Then she said a lot of hurtful things. She doesn't want to have sex with me...I think the thought repulses her. She hates that she has to "break my heart" by asking me to move out. Booooo Frickin Hooo. She doesn't have to. She doesn't feel safe or secure with me.
then she gives me the standard B.S. about how she loves me and she doesn't' want reach a point where she hates me again. But doesnt' give one cr@ap about how my feelings for her might changes.
She's willing to risk everything on this stupid plan. Part of me just wants to file and get it over with or worse. But then I'd still have to move out.
I don't know how I feel about her anymore. I mean I look at her and all I see is someone who doesn't want me around. (She claims that this isn't true)
I'm effed.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
