BeingMe, I understand this is a scary time for you! As you pointed out, you beat the cancer, keep on beating it!! Don't be scared of the CAT Scan, or your check-up, fear is the air cancer breathes, don't give it ONE BREATH!!! I can relate, I had colon-rectal cancer in 09, did 6 weeks of chemo and radiation, surgery, infection, an ostomy bag, 12 cycles of 5-fu, oxyplatin, lucovorin chemo, and a reversal surgery on the ostomy. I am living my life to the fullest, and I have ZERO time for idiots!!! This is why I have encouraged you to move on! You have done everything and then some! Live life for yourself, please!!! If I can help you with the cancer or anything else, please let me know!!!