STILL here...even after I quit.

[ninelives]

I know what you are saying BTM, and no I was not offended by you calling me weak in this regard. I believe we would be weaker if we just let go to tell you the truth. ITs just not about her, its also about our family which i love and miss so much. The four of us having dinner together etc...

IM not sure if Im going to be a lifer. I may be in my heart in some corner but that is just too painful to go on like this the rest of your life. I think it will take somebody extra special to get her out of our minds. Never totally, but enough to love that new person and be able to cope.

Song in the 70's ,love the one your with. I never really got that song because I thought it would be insane not to be with the one you love but I now know that is not always possible. But if you do love the one your with, that may grow over the years until you can truly get your lifer out of your soul.

make sense?

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