I said I'd be wary of the upturn in W's mood and I was wise to do that. She's back to icy stares and one-word answers.

Today is a tough day. Tomorrow will be 3 months exactly since The Bomb, and even though that is a very short time compared to a lot of other sitch's it still feels like an eternity. No affection, no tenderness, no ML...still sleeping in separate bedrooms. I've been keeping busy, going out with my kids when I can, working on the never-ending house projects and generally trying to occupy my mind with other things. But there are several moments during the day when I look at what is going on and say to myself, "What's the use? She is never going to change how she feels. This is as good as it is ever gong to get."

And that is just not enough for me.

H 56
W 48
D27,S21
SS25
SS22 Severely autistic
M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs.
"I've never loved you" 3/7/2011
Separated 8/7/2011
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