W came round early to drop the kids off, so as planned I quickly jumped in the shower.
S12 told W I was in shower, W waited a few minutes then left.
Together with not coming down to see her on Friday when she picked up the "vodka" it’s been 8 days since I last saw her, and will be 15 days to next Sunday when W comes to get the kids.
Whilst some may say this is the only opportunity I get to see her, I want to go dark without seeing each other to see if anything happens, i.e. any signs or baby steps similar to when she first left and I went dark. I think next week she will want to see how I am. Hopefully this dark time is giving her time to realise things, buts she is just so stubborn I doubt it will. It is hard but I am determined to do it for ME.
When I was out last night I saw a couple of W's "old" friends (separately) and they said I seemed happy and looked really good, the best they had seen me. It was nice to get female comments like that and I felt good last night.
D14 told me that she had "sleepovers" most nights last week at her mums, she won’t be doing that here as her bedroom is a mess LOL.
GAL plans for this week. 1) Go out cycling again a few nights when the kids are out with their friends (only locally as not to far away if needed) 2) Bowling with the kids Tue (if they tidy their rooms) 3) Going to see family with kids 4) Play some board games with kids in the evening (need to get S12 off his Xbox) 5) Go out with kids somewhere, then for something to eat Sat 6) Reading db/dr parts again (can anyone recommend other good reading material applicable?) 7) Obviously, coming on here
Me - 37 W - 38 D - 14 S - 12 Together - 16 Married - 12 Bomb - April 13, 2011 W moved out - May 13, 2011
The man I became is changing back to the man I was........... and more
