LP - I have the house, yard, kids and animals. STBX (I think) wanted freedom from all that as much as she wanted freedom from me. Sundays used to be my favourite day of the week, since there was family time and it was the one time a week we could actually have a nice big family dinner. STBX is an amazing cook. Now, Sundays make me sad sometimes, because of those memories. But, by the time I clean the house, do yard work, laundry, grocery shop and make dinner, most of the day is spent. That's not a bad thing. Down time still allows my mind to wander.
Speaking of groceries, S17 brought me the usual weekly grocery money from STBX. The longer I stay dark, the more I expect her to stop paying. We have no legal separation agreement or anything. It's risky, but it is the best for me and the kids. I hope she is willing to stay with original plan of divorcing and selling house next July.
I wandered off there a bit..... This will be day 11 of dark for me. Where are you at? I should ask Nine the same thing. He is after all, our BID - brother in darkness.
