Went for a run Friday night and met up with friends after, helped calm me down a lot.
Saturday was a pretty good day. Had my boys all day, went to a chili cook-off/fundraiser downtown. S14 and I enjoyed it, S12 is too picky for his own good. Hung around the apartment mostly and relaxed with them. After they left, met friends at a downtown bar to watch hockey.
Bar was packed due to cook-off and baseball game. At one point, a friend yelled out my W's name (it's very common) and I think my heart skipped several beats. Turns out he was greeting the bartender. I think I have PTSD or something! Lots of attractive women at the bar, got a few smiles and looks (I think).
Another friends' fiance was having a bachelorette party that my W was invited to. I left the bar after the hockey game and went home. Everyone else met up with the party at another bar, and one friend kept texting me how wild and crazy it was. Told him I was happy for him. I don't know if W was there or not, don't really want to know. Just hearing her name, seeing pictures, etc tenses me up. I know I wouldn't have been able to handle seeing her there.
I have absolutely no plans for the day. Have a few small things I should do, but nothing to occupy a whole (or even significant part of a) day. Times like this I really have to work on those GAL skills.
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011
