Am i heading in the right direction?

[donnaf]

Thanks for your answer, any more questions dont hesitate to ask.

The problem is yes i'm fairly comfortable with as i enjoy his company and he was my best friend for 11 years, but i DO want more. He admitted also that he cant tell her that hes getting on with me so i feel its another part of his life hes building on with lies (but then i guess thats his and her problem!)

No they dont work together now, he asked her to leave when he came home. To b honest I dont ask anything about his life.

Its my little girls birthday soon and i said that she was having her party in my parents back garden and he got all huffy, saying that was really arkward for him and he wouldnt come but suggested maybe an early party and then we go out as a family after.

I've improved myself alot aswell since hes gone, i've lost weight, changed my hair and (apart from the down days) feel good about myself. He has noticed this.

I dont want to look like i'm grateful for any crumbs he throws my way either.