Life is a highway

[ninelives]

I need to get off this island man. But im trapped. Went to the trade show today to fund raise for our "provincial ' volleyball championships which I am the convenor.

Our town hosts this every two years. I was on pins cause I was expecting to see my W walking with boyfriend at anytime but luckily, it didnt happen. Then went to grocery store and say her lawyer, (not the brightest lawyer in the world) walking with my sons teacher, who is lawyer's daughter. (small town hick stuff)

Then went to a funeral gathering for my frined's dad. One guy there said he was sorry to hear about my sitch. I said, yeah, it wouldnt be so bad if she was on her own.

Then this guy, former student, says, well i went to school with him and you gotta admit, hes a hell of a nice guy. I looked at him and said, Really; nice guys have affairs on their wives when they are pregnant right? Nice guys prey on vulnerable women. I said to him, tell me anything you want Charlie, but dont ever tell me this guy that ruined everything I have dear is a hell of a nice guy. Ever again.

I guess he must have saw something in my eyes, because he apologized for the next 5 minutes or so.

I want mad at my friend but it made me wonder. Maybe she wont regret any of this and is thinking that he is paying attention to her like a didnt do. I let my coaching and kids and life in general get in the way of showing her how much I really cared.

Maybe she wont regret this move of hers after all. I didnt say any thing further but just tried to crack a few jokes some othr friends.

Just a little down again. My timeline for shaking this unhappiness is going to be long I think. I have glimpses of happiness, but it is short lived.

25 said my happiness meter should not be related to her misery meter. I know this to be true but fall short sometimes.

Cmon 9, snap out of this funk, life really is too short.

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