also, while you say you are owning your issues, I don't get that from you. Sorry, but there's something superficial about the way you say you are 'taking responsibility" for your part...of course I could be wrong. Just intuition I suppose. I cannot recall your 180s either.
Remember, the idea was that you'd show how m to you today, would be different than before.
I realize you come here to vent but it's also a great place to come and do some soul searching.
Finally, it occurs to me that there may be a reason she didn't want you at the hospital.
It's a female issue for one, and there are some "womanly ego" aspects to that which Antonia's post may enlighten you about...
and we don't know your history of taking care of her when she's sick.
are there any examples of that?
Is it possible she thinks you'd make it all worse somehow?
Just asking.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
