E, your input is appreciated. I have chosen to forego companionship and affection in order to learn more about myself. I don't blame W for "keeping" me from it. I am confident that I could find it if I wanted to. However, I am now considering moving forward with my life because I believe she is incapable of evaluating herself within an acceptable time frame. Certainly one I am no longer willing to wait out.
I have prayed for her. I will eventually forgive her completely. But the negative impact she is capable of inflicting is one I am no longer willing to accept. Unfortunately, she is now ratcheting up the pain via financial assault. It will take financial independence to solve it.
Trust me, I still experience the rage. Violent fantasies. But they subside quickly. I have backslid into feeling sorry for myself; into being stuck. But I recover quickly and take back ownership of my sitch.
I get discouraged that there is no penalty experienced by W or OM for their actions. But I understand that vengeance is God's. I just wish it would happen sooner rather than later.
I have been successful at limiting interaction with W. But she is good at the ambush. I realize she will always be in my life. So finding a healthy interaction is critical.
