This week has been a struggle. We talked a bit about H's financial problems, which led to me opening an R talk. I bluntly asked H "we've gone thru a really tough period in our M, are you here now for good, do you have feelings for me?" he said he didn't know any different, teared up a bit, while I was still finishing with "are you here just until you get back on your feet financially?" I explained that I was asking because so many of his decisions affect my decisions, yet when we were partners and a team we did amazing things when our goals matched. He understood all that.
I said I would like hugs and kisses and he sorta smiled. Then as is always typical, H withdrew and was very distant all week.
Back to usual now, but I still can't seem to bridge the gap that still exists for such a long time.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
