Thanks golfgirl for your input. In some ways I would love to downsize and startover in another place. During out separation I did spend time looking only to discover that it will actually cost me more to move - to fix another place up (as it seems this is what ppl expect anymore) and own - even renting costs the same or more. So I put that idea on hold because my income is low for where I am. But it won't really solve my problem because my exh and i work at the same place - our offices are next to each other. We are close to retiring so jumping to a new job won't get me more and would be another adjustment.
As far as getting out - I found out that I am feeling extremely distrusting of others right now. I never had many friends - my life revolved around work and family. And my best friend of 20 years walked away from me while I was going through my separation. So I am finding that while I push myself to start relationships - I have little trust that it will go well and this week I discovered just how sensitive I am to this issue. So I have some work to do in this area.
