You admit everything with honesty. You see it. You get it.
I'm not out to hit you with any 2x4's, but I've been posting here the last few days because for me, it just doesn't hurt anymore. I want to pay forward and help.
Anger and pain will die in time, in the mean time it's how you deal with it. Everyone handles it different.
You keep posting it though, and your very blunt. I like it. Kudos to you friend.
I will say one thing though, if you weren't feeling something, you wouldn't be posting like this.
Just know as long as she knows the boundary clearly and you live the boundary. Change is inevitable. With or without her. Stay strong.
Remember this stuff for the rest of your life bud.