Well today I went got a hair cut, trimed the yard, cut the front grass could not do the back because of young birds that are in the grass in the back yard. I also made sure the house was nice and some what clean not all the way. Also made sure dinner was cooked.
We had a party tonight for a neighbor. H asked if dinner is done and I say yes. I ate out side he ate inside then took a nap. Gets up from nap ask me if I cut the grass I say yes only the front because of the birds in the back. H then ask well what was it set on looks like it is to short. I tell him the # and he walks away.
Well I had to run our kids around show up to the party late H acts like I am not at the party. I have noticed that H gets a call around 8 every night. Well at 8 he is gone to our house and I see him in the house on the phone. Not that I wanted to know who he was talking to or what about. I come home to get a drink and see him on the phone he is in the house. Looking out the window. I go in the fridge in the garage and get my drink and start to leave. Well he hangs up comes out and acts like he is making a drink. I did not look back did not say a word just went back to the party. How ever this is after he was coming home and I asked if he could bring me a drink back. Lots of people at the party know what is going on and was asking me question I said as much as I could a little amount to get out of the conv.
H went home with out saying a word to any one and went to bed.
I have not txt him unless about the kids today. Also have not tried to talk to him afraid he is going to say I am pushing him away agian. I am going to keep up this for a while and see what happens. Most people that know what is going on tells me I am very strong. I just do not feel that way. I just want to cry but can not. I guess if our friends see I am strong so does he.
