After 2 years separation, he still wants out!!!

[MommaDucki]

Have not mentioned this before, but there's a slight chance H is bi-polar and maybe in early MLC? His mother and sister have both been diagnosed bi-polar and are both on lithium treatments. H is very anti-therapy and counseling....so unless he comes around and changes his view on that on his own, there's no way to confirm...if not bi-polar, at least manic. I'm not trying to make excuses....some of the things he does are just not right, but these are just thoughts about him.

Why do I think MLC? BECAUSE:
-He took on a 3 month contract job that sent him all over the country because he'd never really been out there to see the world and he's not getting any younger.

-He went out and replaced his entire wardrobe claiming he needed to change to better fit the times.

-He wants D because he never got to live a long time as a true bachelor and he wants to know that experience.

-He started hanging out with people who drink/do drugs and says he's seriously contemplating partaking in drug use to slow down his thought processes.

-Claims he thinks he's not "married guy material", but if he changed his mind, he'd call me back up and we'd fly to vegas to get remarried when he's ready.

-(he works in computers...techie stuff) When his contracted job ended back in dec '10, the reason he didn't obtain a new contract with company or take on a different job back at home was because he claims he realized his true calling in life is acting and he hired an agent and has been working small bit jobs as an extra in hopes of making it big soon.

-though he used to be indifferent about them, he's gotten two tatooes

-He's let his hair grow out to mid-back length and started dying it to cover his grays since we've been separated.


All this combined with everything else leave me with raging thoughts of confusion in my head...is this truly a MLC when he's only 30? if so, it's been 2 1/2 years...how much longer can I deal with this? (see next reply for how! lol!)