Thanks michelle and all the others for chiming in. I appreciate it so much.
Today I took yet another step towards healing I decided to delete X from my FB. It sounds so childish I know like I am back in HS or something but it is the little things that cause pain in my life.
I learned today she has moved to Tulsa where OM lives and with her financial sitch it is clear that she has moved in with him.
I know it is guessing to some…………….to me. It is common sense.
Anyways since we are D she can do as she pleases but the pain of how easily we are replaced is not diminished.
Everyone has their own boundary.
I have mine. And I WILL NOT compromise it. Not for X not for anyone.
The pain will linger for some time I imagine. I am sure it will. But the presence of OM for ME is a healing step.
No one to ME is worth this. NO ONE.
It is kind of a rambling post and almost obsolete since we are D but this began before the D was final maybe not physical but certainly emotional and that part stings a little.
Trust your gut. It will never lead you wrong.
I got so caught up in the ‘hope’ speech, and when you are desperate you can find hope anywhere but sometimes you have to face the music.
What were my expectation after the D?
I don’t know.
Common sense would dictate that we both would date I suppose but being replaced so easily is not something I can handle lightly.
I guess I feel the minute you have to compete for a woman, well then you have already lost.
