Slowly we unfurl, as lotus flowers

[ninelives]

Hang in there Country. I know how hard it is to not have expectaitons. You know my sitch. I am missing her more and more the longer this no contact occurs. But this MUST continue.

As you are aware , LP, BTM and we asked Denver to keep us honest with the NC. I think its a MUST man. I have always thought that there was too much contact from your end with the pics of daughter. She doesnt change her features from day to day and IMO, you are not letting W miss D in her life by continually giving her updates about every bit of minituae(sp)..

You seemed to be doing better a month ago. I know you backslide with desire for your W back, as do I. I know you cant understand this WAS syndrome. But you have to heal man. The only way to do so is to stop looking over your shoulder. She knows you are there right now and simply has to ring a bell and you will come running. She needs to lose that security.

What will life be like without the NEW Country? Am I willing to risk it?

Cmon man, you know better.

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