...been suffering from a little melancholia lately. Friday evening was beautiful, saw lots of couples walking around hand in hand. I am in no hurry to find someone else. I am trying to find me, but it did make me feel something... not sure what.
Earlier today I stumbled across a picture of xh and his girl friend on facebook. He looks deliriously happy. I felt so strange looking at it, like it was a picture I should not be seeing.
For the most part I am doing good... My boys and I have some great plans for summer going to the beach in a couple of weeks and to visit SIL & BIL later in July. DS16 will be a senior next year. DS15's confirmation at church is in June... life does go on, there is no stopping it.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
another step closer to total freedom today. I got the EZ pass transponder back from x, so now I will no longer know when he comes and goes.
at first he balked at giving it back to me and I almost caved, I still don't think it ever occurred to him that I have always known when he came and went. I wonder if it will ever dawn on him. Doesn't matter though, not my business... and hasn't been for a long time.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
22 years ago today I was married to the man I thought would be my life long partner. It didn't turn out that way.
I have huge plans for tonight, getting all dressed up and going to a fancy schmancy party. So much better than sitting home wondering "what if".
I am determined to make this the last time I think of June 3rd as what would have been my xx anniversary. Got a whole year to work on that starting today.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
