I'm lost. need help with WAW

[GAL Man]

That really got to me last night, and I am not usually an angry person. WTH was W thinking.

Another thing was D14 asked to have some money in the week to go swimming with her friends, I said but your at your Mums this week, she needs to give u some pocket money. D14 said w had brought lots of new clothes and was skint (even though w has just been paid) and had to pay her cc off, w told her to get some from me as I am on more money than her.... I did give her some. W has lost so much weight as well, but I don't think she looked good for it though.

I accidently called W when on way to work this morning and I had some cheesy music playing very loud in the car. I didn't realise until I had 2 missed calls and a text from her, I didn't speak to her or return her text as gone dark.

I have been speaking to a couple of our mutual friends again this week and they all think W is having a MLC. I sent the following to one of them, and I think it sums up where I am nicely

Do I still love my W, yep, can I forgive W for this and the problems in our M, yes, but only as I can own my contributions and forgive myself. I know what I want and don't want, and where I am. Space and time is needed to help us on our own journeys, I am on mine and can only control that, W needs to define hers, realise her contributions to the failure of our M, and own them!, only then will her journey start to emerge. Is this indefinitely? No way, but these journeys have boundaries. Wherever this takes me I will be better for it, where I decide to "get off" is my choice. What I do I do for me, the choices I make are for me..........

Been quite busy this week, and can "tick off" most of the things from my list on Monday, so GAL coming on well, friends have noticed too.