Read my last post before this one. I don't know what that ^^^ means...
I was praying about this situation and I felt led to apologize to my husband. I did not want to call, so I sent him an email telling him how I researched codependency and saw what he was talking about. And that he really did give way more than I did and that I am so sorry. I said I didn't need a response. I just wanted him to know how sorry I am.
Was that bad? Was that pursuing? Sometimes I feel, as a Christian, the urge to say certain things when my heart tells me to. I know that sending the email felt right. I just hope it was.
It's not "wrong" to apologize. But it's unhealthy to be so impulsive after this many people have told you not to pursue, or make ANY decisions without reflection. Then you go ahead and use the excuse that you were "lead" by God, to send an email to him then and there, about CO-DEPENDENCY and flaws, and you probably see no irony in that. It IS pursuit imo. Mainly b/c you were so desparate for a reason to contact him.
Any new self discovery you make, isn't really valid the first 4 hours it exists. I mean, do you see how unreflective that looks? It's impulsive. That's something to work on bc it's NOT calm and it's NOT patient. Those are things to work on.
Don't spend time regretting it now. Move forward. You've apologized for past errors so now, live in the present "from this day forward."
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
